I didn’t wind up doing too much this weekend, but I had a few interesting things happen. It sucked being kinda stranded since I didn’t want to drive my car around, but luckily I was able to manage with getting rides, and being loaned a car by Vince.

Anyway, Thursday night, Josh went on a date, which was basically the first he went on since some internet chick in November. So I was kinda bummed about that, but since he didn’t sound sure of what she thought, I didn’t worry too much. But she showed up today for the viewing of 6 Feet Under. Her name is also Jennifer, and it turns out that I met her at Josh’s birthday party last month. She also had an English class with me 2 years ago. I definitely don’t think she’s cuter than me, but he thinks she’s cute, so whatever. Though it’s one of those things that makes you re-evaluate how cute you might be, since he thought I was cute too. At least she’s not super ugly or anything—I just don’t think she’s that cute. Anyway, this came as a surprise to me that all of a sudden they are “dating”, when their first date was 3 days ago. All I can say is, I don’t know how i’ll react if he starts calling her his girlfriend or making out with her in public, since those are things he had a problem with while dating me (and other girls I think). So if she were the exception, I guess I’ll feel sorta offended. I know it’s been over a year since we’ve dated, but I’m still not ok with the thought of him dating someone else, and now definitely not being able to hang out more often, since she’ll be around.

Oh and by the way, this totally supports my theory that everyone who dates me either has dated a Jennifer right before me, or right after me. It’s happened three times now, so it definitely can’t be a coincidence. I worry that it might last awhile, since she lives around here, and they’ve known each other for years. I guess I can only wonder why they never hooked up before this. I guess i’ll eventually find out why when I talk to him. I tried tonight, but he cut the conversation short because “Jenn” was coming over. Heh, I already see how it is. Sometimes I wonder if I have the right to still be upset, but Martin assures me I do, since, although the relationship ended last May, the benefits didn’t end until much later. Staying with him briefly while I moved up here in September definitely didn’t help things. Hehe, it’s a good thing I didn’t have this blog then, because that would’ve been a really long entry. Needless to say, there was some major tension back then because of unresolved issues surrounding the breakup. I think they are still partly unresolved, and who knows when, or even it, things will ever be completely normal. I guess I should just be lucky he even speaks to me. Anyway, I guess despite the fact that I’m not happy about this very sudden turn of events, I hope that things turn out a lot better than they did with me (and even a few other girls he’s had in the past). I know I must sound a bit selfish, wanting him to stay single when i’m not—and to some extent I can be pretty selfish and self-centered. However, I also don’t ever want him to be as hurt as he was this time last year.

So that about sums up my weekend….overall it really wasn’t that bad—I got to sleep and relax—but there were some aspects that I could’ve lived without (ie. the ones I just described in detail above.) Let’s see what happens next….

Posted at 10:25 PM |